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This is it... - 'Cause the sky is breaking
It's deeper than love
crazyjoyfulgirl
crazyjoyfulgirl
This is it...
In 9 hours guys that is all we have 9 hours until the SPN finale that is it that is all. I want to say I'm coping well that I'm handling myself with extreme and utter calm but if the way my leg is
currently jumping and shaking is a indicator I would just be lying to myself.

So this is what I want to do come and talk to me tell me anything, everything or hell just comment for a hug or a squeeze. You can even freak out and cry on me too I'm totally cool with that.

Tell me something you love about Dean, tell me something you love about Sam, tell me something you love about Dean and Sam or just tell me everything is going to be just fine even if you feel different.

This is the finale guys and it is not a two-parter what will happen is going to happen and we can't wait until a 'next Thursday' again for four more months after this. So, yeah I'm bringing out the big guns because
that is what Winchesters do.

Ramble, cling, picspam, wax poetic or just talk about the weather if denial is what you need it is all good. Just no spoilers please that is all I ask.

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x5vale From: x5vale Date: May 15th, 2008 04:35 pm (UTC) (Link)
I'm not calm. I'm not coping..I have to wait until tomorrow morning and I'm dying here.

It's no normal.

Oh Dean Dean Dean....you so don't deserve all they have done to you...and Sammy, Sammy...sighs

It will be fine, don't know when, but it will be.

*hugs*
crazyjoyfulgirl From: crazyjoyfulgirl Date: May 15th, 2008 05:20 pm (UTC) (Link)
I'm really not at all either but I need to pretend I just need to pretend for a little longer or else I will go crazycakes.

I've drifted over the flist and the every single time I see a picture of Dean I wibble like a freak.

So yeah I need to pretend for my sanity or I won't be able to even sit down on my couch at 9. So if you aren't normal I'm right there with you.

*hugs the boys so tight and then hugs you even tighter*
felisblanco From: felisblanco Date: May 15th, 2008 04:39 pm (UTC) (Link)
I won't get to see it until tomorrow morning and I'm not sure if that's better or worse. Sleeping will be a challenge. Waiting for the download will be Hell. Staying away from LJ until I've seen it, very very difficult. Watching it at work and trying to keep my cool? Damn near impossible.

And then four months hiatus! It they leave us on a cliffhanger I won't be held responsible for my actions. No letting Dean go to Hell and save it for next season for Sam to get him out of there, ok? That is just not on, Kripke, you hear me?

*is scared*

crazyjoyfulgirl From: crazyjoyfulgirl Date: May 15th, 2008 05:33 pm (UTC) (Link)
Oh baby I want to say you will get a nice restful sleep but I went to bed at like 5am and I was up at noon no joke! I could not sleep and every single time I opened my eyes there was Jensen on my wall giving me the eye and ruining me.

Just try not to think about it baby and I know that is stupid to say because I couldn't stop myself but try as hard as you can. Do whatever you have to do to get through it until you can watch.

This hiatus is going to one of the worse but I say that every finale but then again my contemplation of what is to come just fuels my fear as to why it will be that much harder.

*forces deep breaths*

I'm scared too Felis I am so freaking scared and I am not emotionally equipped for it I'm just not I cry over the simplest things sometimes. I am a emotional whirlwind and if this episode doesn't kill me I will be surprised.

I did not function well at ALL when Sam died I was a freking wreck. I was so, so utterly destroyed and still to this day...STILL TO THIS DAY I cannot watch that scene without losing my shit and Dean brought him back the VERY NEXT EPISODE FOR GODS SAKE!!

*clings to you*
momotastic From: momotastic Date: May 15th, 2008 04:54 pm (UTC) (Link)
See, __tiana__ got this great idea about how this episode is going to end I really liked that theory. You can read it here and then we can DISCUSS!
crazyjoyfulgirl From: crazyjoyfulgirl Date: May 15th, 2008 05:50 pm (UTC) (Link)
Oh dear god okay...okay...*breathes* Alright here is the thing with me I get mad protective of Sam and when I think about him going evil/bad/possessed or anything kind of like that I just sort of have a breakdown.

I love my Sam just as he is just as he always has been but I have to say right now in this moment in time that if THAT is what happened if THAT is how it ended I would DIE even harder.

BUT...there just might be a spark of HOPE in my chest to keep me from crawling into a hole and not coming out again for four months.

I'm not afraid of Sam's powers or even hate them I love my Sam period. I'm just scared for him when they come into play but to save Dean...TO SAVE DEAN god I would probably deal with just about anything.

*tags* YOUR IT!!
storydivagirl From: storydivagirl Date: May 15th, 2008 05:27 pm (UTC) (Link)
I love how much Dean loves Sam and his car and as long as he has those things, he mostly happy.

I love Sam's bitchface, especially when it's at Dean with the half-amused/half-annoyed look.
crazyjoyfulgirl From: crazyjoyfulgirl Date: May 15th, 2008 05:56 pm (UTC) (Link)
YOU...YOU are my HERO! Thank you...just thank you so much!

I AGREE WITH ALL OF THAT BTW! SO MUCH YES!

I love how Dean calls Sam a girl but if there is even a whiff of harm that comes to Sam's head how Dean will drop the macho act and let his emotions rule his every decision...his every single move.

I love how Sam is stubborn even when you want to slap him I love that he doesn't and will not give up and how much he has grown into the person he is right now.
honeymull From: honeymull Date: May 15th, 2008 05:35 pm (UTC) (Link)
I am VIBRATING with the tension. Inside, I'm freaking out, outside - totally calm. Except for the vibrating. But at least I'm not flapping and running around in tiny, frantic circles like I want to.

...

GOSH WHAT NICE WEATHER WE'RE HAVING. *trembles*


crazyjoyfulgirl From: crazyjoyfulgirl Date: May 15th, 2008 06:02 pm (UTC) (Link)
Welcome to my world chica welcome to my world.

The only visible signs of my anguish so far is the jittering leg and the slightly shaky hands but on the inside I am like a storm of flailing emotions!

OMFG THIS SHOW THIS SHOWWWWWWW!!

...Yes indeed it is...we should go for a RUN and like HIDE IN A CAVE!! *taps fingers on desk non-stop*
From: hijademusica Date: May 15th, 2008 06:20 pm (UTC) (Link)
I want to run screaming my head off down the street...but I think they might send someone after me if I do that. Then I'd never see this epi and I'd probably end up in a mental institution because of it.
hoveringon From: hoveringon Date: May 15th, 2008 05:36 pm (UTC) (Link)
This is the longest day of life.

crazyjoyfulgirl From: crazyjoyfulgirl Date: May 15th, 2008 06:03 pm (UTC) (Link)
A-FREAKING-MEN!!
From: hijademusica Date: May 15th, 2008 06:13 pm (UTC) (Link)
I love that Dean loves Sam and Sam loves Dean and nothing will ever change that.

And I'm nervous, overly anxious that Dean's going to die and going to stay dead for this episode. If they leave it at that, it'll be just like the season 1 finale all over again. Can I handle that?

And the fact that the sky has been raining since 5 this morning...I feel like it's emanating Sam and the only reason it stopped an hour ago is because it he has no more tears to cry.

I can't believe I'm so invested in this. Every time I think about it my hands start shaking. I actually posted on FF.net yesterday because I woke up feeling Sam's pain. Dude, I'm freaking out.
From: hijademusica Date: May 15th, 2008 06:24 pm (UTC) (Link)
I'm sorry, but does anyone else want a hug? I need a freakin hug!

GROUP HUG!!!!

Sorry...

I think I should go now, this is freaking me out even more.
stir_of_echoes From: stir_of_echoes Date: May 15th, 2008 06:18 pm (UTC) (Link)
HE DID IT FOR LOVE. ONLY LOVE NOTHING ELSE AND NOW HE'S GOING TO PAY THE PRICE!

He just wanted his brother safe and Sammy's going to be inconsolable and Bobby...

What about Bobby. How's he going to feel?

OMG!

I CAN'T EVEN...

[HOLDS ON TO YOU]
crazyjoyfulgirl From: crazyjoyfulgirl Date: May 15th, 2008 06:48 pm (UTC) (Link)
OMFG...OMFG!! *grabs the tissue box* JULES I CANNOT EVEN! I. CANNOT. EVEN!!

He can't...he just can't I need for it not to happen because if it happens, if it happens I do not even know how I am going to cope through it.

But if I even think past Dean if I even try to think past that pain to touch Sam...to touch Bobby...*tears up* JULES...GOD DAMN IT JULES!!

*straps myself to you and holds tight*
From: woodstarling Date: May 15th, 2008 06:39 pm (UTC) (Link)
I WANT IT, but I DON'T but I NEED IT but I'm going to SOB UNCONTROLLABLY and EMBARRASS MYSELF TO THE EXTREME.


All I'm asking is for NO interruptions like last week, else I'll probably DIE. .. Or kill whoever interrupted.
crazyjoyfulgirl From: crazyjoyfulgirl Date: May 15th, 2008 06:55 pm (UTC) (Link)
OH MY GOD WE ARE LIKE ADDICTS WHO CANNOT STOP USING! THAT is what THIS sounds LIKE and I do not even want to DENY it because OMFG YES MUCH!

It is like a car crash you want to turn away, you know you need to turn away because the sight is scary and heartbreaking but you. just. can't.

We all know this finale is going to break every single one of us even if we do not know a thing at least know THAT and yet we do not even PLAN to turn the hell AWAY!

Fangirls baby we are total fangirls!
tabularassa From: tabularassa Date: May 15th, 2008 07:13 pm (UTC) (Link)
My panties are all in a bunch waiting for this. OMG...I'ma hyperventilate....
crazyjoyfulgirl From: crazyjoyfulgirl Date: May 15th, 2008 07:30 pm (UTC) (Link)
My panties are all in a bunch waiting for this.

I sorta want to kiss your face for this because...OMG SO FRAKKIN' ADORABLE!

But YES I so, so, so understand and remember DEEP BREATHS...DEEP CLEANSING BREATHS!
popmusicjunkie From: popmusicjunkie Date: May 15th, 2008 10:22 pm (UTC) (Link)
PET!
*clings*
I really have nothing.
I am too keyed up right now.
I AM ALREADY FREAKING OUT.
No show has ever done this to me before and I doubt it will ever happen again. And the boys! Oh, the boys....*cries*

I am unspoiled, but I have this thought running through my head. That Dean will DIE and Sam will become EVIL and hiatus is going to be awfully long and give me an ulcer.
crazyjoyfulgirl From: crazyjoyfulgirl Date: May 15th, 2008 11:17 pm (UTC) (Link)
PB&J
*grabs tight and doesn't let go*
That is okay it is okay to have nothing.
Everyone is going to cope with this how they need to I respect that further more I expect that and wouldn't have it any other way.
FROM YOUR MOUTH TO MY EARS BABY WELCOME TO THE FREAK OUT CLUB POPULATION THE ENTIRE SPN FANDOM!!
Yes our boy’s god we just need to hold on to that thought our boys, our boys and never let it go. *wibbles like a freak*

That Dean will DIE and Sam will become EVIL and hiatus is going to be awfully long and give me an ulcer.

UGH and THERE goes MY stomach! Now the fun part it to try not to go too overboard and throw-up all over ourselves from the self-induced stress parade. CAN WE DO IT? WE BETTER FREAKING HOPE SO!
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crazyjoyfulgirl From: crazyjoyfulgirl Date: May 21st, 2008 10:42 pm (UTC) (Link)
Are you smoking the crack? Baby I love you just as much now as I did when we waxed poetic about naked peepee touching.

I just assumed you were busy and I did not want to demand of your time. Plus...I have the flu and to move from the bed to the computer takes great effort which I don't have much of right now.

Were you actually worried about this? DO NOT BE WORRIED ABOUT THIS I LOVE YOU ALLA TIME!! ♥
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